I don’t really know how to write this post. As you know the last couple of days haven’t necessarily gone to plan (my plan at least) and I had a moment where I questioned whether what I’d done the right thing undergoing my prophylactic bilateral nipple sparing mastectomy?
This morning I came across this man, Angelo Meridono’s photos that capture his wife’s battle with breast cancer. They are the most beautiful photos and have moved me beyond articulation. They capture his wife, Jennifer’s strength, courage and pain. The Battle We Didn’t Choose.
I then read his wife, Jennifer’s blog where she writes about her treatment, her cancer and its effects on her body http://mylifewithbreastcancer.wordpress.com. Throughout she is eloquent, courageous and for me, truly inspiring.
Jennifer sadly passed away on 22nd December, 2011. She was 40 years old.
I am humbled by Jennifer and Angelo and the pain they have and will be going through.
So as I moan about staying in hospital too long, pesky drains and plastic surgeons I think I’ve lost perspective on why I set out to do this in the first place. I am not brave or courageous and not proud of my mindset over the past few days. Jennifer and Angelo’s story is a stark reminder of how incredibly lucky and privileged I am and my intention is hopefully finding clarity once more.